Now, that all of the excitement of graduation has begun to subside and the student loan statements have begun to fill my Inbox, growing up is looking quite bleak. Its becoming more obvious that my part-time job, though it pays well and has excellent benefits, is not going to allow me to support myself financially and will never lead to anything else. And though I've been searching for better paying jobs, the lack of positions which I'm qualified for is deafeningly apparent.
Day after day of working a soul sucking job which prevents me from ever hoping to move out of my childhood bedroom is leaving me feel empty and dull. Initially, this feeling was easier to cope with as I could fill my free time visiting with friends and pretending that the feeling was temporary. However, now, as the days go on, I become fearful that I will never regain that spark that I use to feel. Optimism is quickly being replaced with pessimism.
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